buttnaykid wrote:
Hey what's up guys, I'm Beau from the northeastern USA, glad to have found this site!
Here's a quick history of me and CFNM:
So, I didn't know what CFNM was called until about 2-3 years ago, however I've known how deeply satisfied I am by the exhilaration I get from CFNM for a long long time, beginning in childhood/early adolescence.
There is a simultaneous sense of transgression and peace that goes with CFNM for me. Like the revealing of oneself is both utterly not ok and completely ok psychologically (regarding the appeal of CFNM, not a real world annecdote or hypothetical scenario). Depending on the context in real world situations, being naked may or may not be ok, of course, but for me the electricity I feel via CFNM fantasy is directly connected with how I related to my own body as a kid, and generally to how I formed my self image.
The fantasy scenarios and role play I can get into with CFNM are about leaping to the forbidden side of my own boundaries almost gleefully, to reject shame and tell your former self 'hey you're actually fine', whilst enjoying the thrill of being bared to an audience, both literally and figuratively. They're essentially the same as my memories of the real life formative experiences that happened to me in adolescence, but instead of terror and humiliation I feel excitement and arousal. The courage to lean into something that once filled me with dread is what brings the peace.
But real talk, shorter version is also that I like CFNM because I get off on it hard, haha.
I would very much like to hear about your formative experiences!