While the subject of this thread is the first CFMN experience, I thought I would go the opposite way and describe what is most likely my last CFNM experience. This is not out of quitting CFNM, something I have been devoted to in one way or another since the ancient world before the digital age when CFNM did not have a name yet or a space called cyberspace to put it. I started during the days of Playgirl and the feminist revolution of Gloria Steinem and, now, some fifty years later, I have aged out of it. It is time to pass the torch onto another generation.
The first time I was naked in front of a woman I was 19 years old; the first time that I had a woman's camera pointing at my naked body in what would later become known as CFNM, I was 21. I can still remember that first session, on a Sunday morning for my photographer girlfriend, Mona, who I was living with. We were sharing it with another roommate, who was gone for the weekend, and due back that day. We were up in our bedroom and Mona was saying goodbye to me. She was going to Seattle with some friends to leave me alone so I could confront a paper due early in the week. As she came in, she had her camera with her as always. Mona was born with a camera in her hand. By virtue of being her lover, I was also her private model. Before Mona, I had been excessively camera shy, and generally shy, about exposing myself, especially for women, but Mona had brought out something within me that I did not know was there. I discovered that I enjoyed being a camera model for women. There was something about the way she positioned me to get the photographs that she wanted from the environment we were in at the moment. I think that this something was I liked to be directed, to have a woman bend, fold, and shape me to her visual pleasure. Mona and I never talked about it, but we both enjoyed our roles and she was unaccustomed at first to having a male be so compliant for her so that, in a manner of speaking, she could be in charge of him. Although it may be something else, I suspect that was it.
We had never done a nude, though. Many reasons existed for this. One among them was peer pressure and what might happen if my peers saw me naked in a photograph by accident. It had happened to a friend of mine, David, shot naked on the stairs by his girlfriend and the photo had got away from them to where I saw it. On that Sunday morning, I was in just a bathrobe, Mona's favorite robe, and nothing else on underneath. I had felt suddenly vulnerable and this excited me. At that age, the evidence is unmistakable and I know Mona saw it too through her lens. It reached a point where I could not resist that temptation anymore and I arranged an accident where my robe would fall off as Mona was shooting me. I dropped the robe in front of her and told her to "go ahead." Mona never went to Seattle that day; I never got started on that paper, but I knew that I was forever addicted to this genre that would be known as CFNM far in a future that we could not have imagined then.
Now I am 67. I am what they call "a senior citizen." Anyway, chance, the fates, and sheer luck were going to give me one last hurrah to say farewell. Once again, as in that first time with Mona, I would be the one to figuratively drop that robe --- this time not for just one lady, but two. I've always wanted to be double teamed by two or more women and their cameras, but it has never happened outside of the Internet and web cam rooms. Now it was real. The feelings were almost indescribable, even for an old veteran of CFNM, who has been in many battles.
The occasion was my 67th birthday party. It was specifically a party in the normal terms. It was just three of us -- Amy, Joyce, and myself. We were at a beach, the beach I worked and managed during the warm seasons, and it was at night. We were alone. The gate to the beach was locked. This night just happened to be the night of the full moon, the Sturgeon moon, as it is called in celestial jargon. We were paddlers. Amy and Joyce were stand up paddlers; I was a kayaker. The beach is on a body of water that was formed by a dam, and zoned in such a way that no vacation homes were built up on the shoreline. When the full moon rose at its peak, pulling itself over a mountain range in back of the beach, it was simply surreal, mystical, and we loved to paddle out on the inky black water that was glowing in the lunar light to sit and bask in this magic. Amy and Joyce had planned a little celebration for my turning to that year when I was the age of social security (in the states), and into this phase of life where I am eligible to receive "social security."
Unknown to me then, they also had planned something else. It surprised me. Amy and Joyce were not CFNM type women. Both were corporate ladies. Amy worked in sales; Jocye was in finance. They were in their late forties and early fifties. I had never expected it from them, which made it all the more fun. This had its background a year before and on another of those full moon nights of lunar beauty. I had just met Joyce, the more adventuresome of the two friends, and she was the one who decided on the surprise. It was a hot summer night. I was alone and had come in from paddling and moon watching and was about to dive in to get the heat off of me. I was going in the skinny; that kind of night almost demanded it. Suddenly, before I stripped, my headlight caught a reflection moving toward me in out of the light and shadows. It was Joyce. Months afterward, when I knew her better, I told her how she had almost caught a naked man in the water. We laughed about it. What I hadn't suspected was that Joyce had preserved that and was going to "catch" me on that night.
The moon had something to do with it too. It failed to materialize at its appointed time. We paddled back in the darkness for the cake, candles, and those inane birthday songs that we did on the beach with terrible harmony and much laughter There was no suggestion of nudity, no hint, then Joyce suggested "let's go swimming." I knew that second what she meant by it. It almost seemed uncanny. Did she suspect my CFNM past? Had she learned of it somehow? Amy and Joyce jumped into the water. They were in their bikinis. At first, it was an awkward moment. We were friends. Amy and Joyce were married; Amy had kids. Would stripping for them violate their marriages? Would it violate what they thought of me? Would they feel threatened by seeing a naked man? Would it be sexual harassment? You always have to be careful in the hospitality/tourist world about crossing that line. I watched them in the water, eyeing me to see if I would "do it."
Then that delinquent moon showed up from over the silhouette of the mountain range. It arose in a glow and it was almost like stage lights. Long ago, I couldn't resist that temptation; now I could not let this temptation go by me. I knew how to strip in the moonlight. I had done it for the cameras/camcorders of Mona and Susan. I did it for Ann once, standing directly in the moonlight streaming into her house for an orgy of photography where I was the naked subject and the inhibitions were called off. I had to keep them on in this case, but I knew how to strip in the moonlight and I used what I had learned for Amy and Joyce. They were heads above the lunar water; I saw their eyes glued to me. I subtly played with the moonlight and gave them a full on front view, then switched it around. I waded in slowly, keeping the light from that tardy moon on me so they could watch me. It was intoxicating to know that they were not nude and I was the only naked one.
We swam a little and talked and I sensed that something else was coming. Joyce led the way. Again, it was uncanny. Had she planned this? Did she know by some intuition? She exited the bright water and went to her car. Reaching into the car and came back and positioned herself on the shoreline. Amy followed suit. I understood immediately. They had their smartphones. I was going to be jumped by flashes zipping through the moonlight when I got out of the water. Flashes zipped my way as I was in the water, with comments of "birthday boy." I knew how to pose naked in water. I played around, using the light and the shadows, letting them see me naked just under the surface, on both a front and rear view. This took hold of the girls. They started shooting in earnest. I stood up and, in the stage lights of the moon, faced them in a full frontal. It was delirious. I had to hold back. How much was too far? I faced Joyce; Amy shot me from the rear as Joyce shot me from the front. Then they switched. They got me from the sides with me in the middle. They controlled me and I had always loved that about modeling naked for women. We clowned around on the beach glowing underneath the moon, so bright in the night blackness that you could not look straight at it. We did selfies of me in the middle of them, arms around each other, facing the camera, me naked and sandwiched between two bikini clad ladies in true CFNM style.
It was hard to hold back. I wanted to let the inhibitions go, to really let them pose me, as a woman should pose a naked guy. We went on and on, which surprised me. I used my knowledge of CFNM to work it so they would keep sending those flashes over me. I loved being double-teamed, having two camera mistresses instead of one and it was almost impossible to restrain myself. I walked along the beach as Amy and Joyce fired away, often at point blank range, putting me into the middle of them. They had me sit on a picnic table. I knew how to spread my legs just wide enough to make it seem like it was a natural thing. Both smart phones went at me from that vantage point.
I was so delirious with eroticism that I forgot the time. How long we went on is an open question. Running out of film is not a concern in the digital age. We could have gone until dawn sent the moon back where it came from. I wanted to. I suspect that they wanted to as well. As it is said, "All good things must come to an end." Amy and Joyce had to get back to families, husbands. They each took pictures of the other kissing me for my b-day, them dressed and me naked, pure CFNM. Joyce gave me a playful whack on the posterior. If she had only known how Susan did that, but in a dominate way, filming herself doing it as I felt the sting of the slaps and turned red there. I did not let on, however, and the moment ended after that.
The girls deleted all the pictures. It was simply too dangerous to keep them on their phones. We all paddled together after that night too, but I did not strip for them again. That night was the exception, a special time, a gift to mark an ending and a beginning.
After the girls drove off that night to their respective homes, I stayed for a while. I did not get dressed and I just luxuriated in that lunar orb's arms. I looked at the moon and the night and smiled, thanking it for being so late and giving me that precious moment to say good-bye to a life. Farewell.
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