Hi everyone, attempting my newbie post here!
I found this site through a google search for cfnm a while back but have waited a while to join. Partially due to age (18) and also wrestling with the love/hate of the inherent double standard within cfnm.
I’ve experienced some mild cfnm scenarios in the past (I outlined one here
http://www.cfnmvillage.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=44&t=4144&start=60) but nothing too intense or exciting. I’ve found that while my early reactions to this was a resentful feeling towards the “unfairness” of being embarrassed while women/girls get away with laughing and enjoying it, I’ve realised this also greatly excites me and fuels my lust.
I was aware of the term “cfnm” a long while after enjoying these feelings. But my main trigger for heavily leaning into this happened about four months back. My female cousin had her hen night and most of the female members of the family were there, it was all organized by one my aunts. Anyways I sometimes do part-time work for my aunt’s cleaning firm as do some other family members. After the hen night (which was held at my aunt’s home) I got wary of something having happened as my mum and sister were making sassy jokes about it being a wild night and showing each other pics or comments on their phones. Then I overheard my aunt making a joke about a stripper. My ears pricked and I worked out they’d had a male stripper at the hen night organized by my aunt.
As you can imagine, just knowing the female members of my family were laughing and joking, feeling empowered at having enjoyed a male stripper sent me into overdrive. On our home laptop my mum has her facebook details automatically stored so you can select the drop down to log in (not sure she’s aware of this loophole). It may be unethical but I had to check and sure enough there was a photo album privately shared among all involved. Of the party and fabulously the stripper and them all having fun.
Seeing them pose so confidently with this near naked man was the stuff of dreams. My aunt in particular seemed super hands-on! Sadly in all the pics his thong remained on, but from the comments some added I strongly inferred that his thong did come off at some point. Anyway I can maybe go into this another time.
Knowing they all enjoyed this has only sent my appreciation for cfnm (and female power) into overdrive. I can accept and admit now that I LOVE the double-standard and women getting their own way, feeling empowered as they embarrass or objectify us guys.
So I joined here really to explore this acceptance more, hopefully not feeling so ashamed of it and reveling in it with like-minded people. I’m also hoping to gain some confidence.